I do not know what the hell is wrong with me.
Don’t jump to conclusions. I am feeling fine right now when it comes to things in general, but I cannot get my fucking head straight with this running bit.
I have taken the last week off from training. The entire last week. It feels like it’s been the last month, and going back over my training schedule, where I actually track everything I do, it nearly has been.
March was shit for training, April is starting to look like it’s not going to be better.
That’s…..probably not so good what with the half marathon in a week and a half.
Surprisingly enough, when it comes to THIS race, I will be ok to just finish it. I know how horrible March was, I know how rough the last week has been, and so if I don’t get my goal time? Welp, ok then.
I know that this has a lot to do with the fact that I am EXHAUSTED. The insomnia
is back never left, work’s gotten super busy which wears me out all day, and sometimes I just can’t even imagine doing anything besides laying on my couch when I get home.
This is rough.
I don’t want to get past this race, past Ragnar, and resent training. I am hoping that taking this week off for my physical sanity, my focus, will help.
Running is fun. I want it to stay fun.
No more time goal for this one. Possibly not one for the next one.
And dammit, if I want naked ice cream nights and a nap, then so be it.